A Way Out.

“No temptation has seized you, except what is common to man.  And God is faithful: he will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you can bear.  But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way for you so you are able to stand under it.”  1 Corinthians 10:13.

I woke up and realized my life had not changed.
I woke up, realizing I had survived.
I woke up, realizing for the first time since having “the problem,”

There was a way out.

It was around the three year mark of first being anorexic, then bulimic, this life altering event took place.  Three years of being trapped in a cage, desperately wanting to get out, but not knowing how.  No one knew.  No magic formula.  No therapy, nothing had given me hope of “a way out” of the endless cycle of binging and purging.  At seventeen, having vomited multiple times a day for three years, the world as I had known it had been interrupted.


That night, God provided a way out for me.

My normal ritual was to purge right before going to bed, with the understanding that no food was to remain in my body overnight.  Never.  It was too risky.  Too frightening for a female teen with an eating disorder.  


Sometime that night, after coming home from a date, I fell asleep.  Too tired to walk through the lifestyle ritual before bed, I had unknowingly drifted off.


Upon waking the next morning, the first thing that came to my mind was 1 Corinthians 10:13……….”He provided a way out!”


This verse was familiar as I sought help from God with my “problem.”  But I had been asking God for help with the temptation piece. … …

I never thought to ask also for a way out.



That night, God allowed sleep to be His way out. For the first time in years, I slept with food in my stomach.  At least for a day, the never-ending-cycle was broken.

And the God of my faith became Real to me…. he became Personal.  His word said He would provide a way out, 


and He came through.



As a result, my fears were unfounded.  My body was not the distorted mess I feared it would be.  No one treated me different or rejected me.  Life went on as usual that day, and no one knew any different.  

For the first time, I had hope.


Hope for overcoming the hell in which I was bound.
Hope for someday having a normal life.
Hope for a way out of the secret life in which I suffered.



That day, I realized the God of the universe saw me.  He knew every step I took when no one else around me did.  He saw the ugliness of my condition, and cared enough to reach down, and 

provide a way out.


Though it was a while yet before I stepped out of the cage, for the first time in the battle, the door was opened, and I could see a way out. 

And the One holding the Key was real.  His Word was real.  Right off the page and into my life, His word became true. 


“He will also provide a way for you “………..
        so you are able to stand under it.



For the first time, I stood.
Feeble though I was.
But I was standing.

And God’s Word became Life to me.

And it still is.


And I love Him all the more, because He cared enough to show Himself real to an unworthy sinner lost and alone.

he’s still in the same business, too.
Where is the door he is holding open for you, providing a way out of what you are tempted with?


Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.”
Matthew 7:7-8





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